Entry 0038

Can I get personal here for a moment?
Just a moment, I promise I won’t waste a lot of your time.

Most people who know me, know that I’m a fairly “devout” atheist, going so far as to be emotionally bothered by those of The Faith.

Well, I guess the first step to recovery is admitting you have a problem.

I’m not really an atheist.

That’s not to say I’m a theist either. I’m more agnostic now. I’m somewhat more willing to admit that there is a possibility of a chance of there being a higher power that does, in some form or another, control and/or look out for fate and so forth. Not an invisible sky wizard, or a great big bearded cloud daddy, or a whole pantheon of deities, or even a Continuum of Omnipotent asshats who all share a common name.

I’m just saying that maybe there is something looking out for us, maybe there is something more to this life than this life, and maybe that something has had a hand in some recent events in my life, and maybe I shouldn’t feel too bad when, say, I start to worry about the well being of someone and I start asking someone etherial to just make sure that everything is “okay”.

But we’ll just keep this between you and me, okay?